My Tiger and me....

Sat, 06 Jan 2007 18:15:06 GMT

I've used up all the pages in my old school journal and now i'm using livejournal as a last resort to sort out how i feel about break.

overall it was a fun filled chemistry, breaking hearts, hanging with friends break. if i might add i was a hot commodity and all the guys were after me. straight edge guys with guns... and guys with paint brushes for weapons spouting Led Zepplin lyrics to swoon my troubled heart (not to mention the big head that came along with that whole package)... HMMM??? which one should i choose? this is really hard! well i guess i'll just have to go find someone who believes in peace not war, cuz i'm not into that whole carrying weapons thing. It doesn't exactly turn me on. I think i'll survive without them!
Other than the men that i'm avoiding i think i started a trend with avoiding my chemistry class as well. Not until the end of break did i get a chemistry tutor to help me. It turned out that i knew more than she did and i paid her $25 to tell her what i already knew. And thats just great, since my mother decided that she was going to cut off my supply of money in the middle of break. She told me that i was basically a tenent in their household. And i said, "ok whatever... how long will this last?" its lasted a week. so i was looking into sellng my hair to cancer patients, but they said i had to have at least a foot of hair and i said, "NO WAY, i totally have that", but then i decided against it because then i'd need a wig just like the cancer patients. then i looked into giving blood, and decided that that was a one time thing, no more will i give blood i'll only do it for extra credit in human bio. I came to the conclusion that i needed my parents money to survive, and with my slim shift at william sonoma i'm going to have to either get another job or just give into my mothers 12:00 curfew. So i did and now i get money. and its not that bad. and in the end i realized that i was just very stubborn. The END
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Thu, 21 Dec 2006 23:41:46 GMT

so municipal traffic court is the scarriest thing ever!
and the people are all really creepy... and it took me all day, but i got my fine down!
YES!

YIPPY!
now i'm going to clean my room!!!!!!!!!

Sat, 16 Dec 2006 00:09:52 GMT

I'm so glad this week is over!
i've never had such a stressfull week. Well, i take that back i probably have, this one is just on the top ten list.
I spent all last night working on the morby scholarship and the general scholarship. Then i thought the rough draft for gov was due so i spent a lot of time working on it. Thankfully joe made me happier when we hung out... we found a new cool little cd store on california. twas fun.
now i'm going to jew fooD!
yip yip!

Thu, 14 Dec 2006 03:53:19 GMT

ok so apparently problem solved
i found a date
and i didn't even have to do anything
wow!
easy!
phew
oh man

Thu, 14 Dec 2006 01:17:23 GMT

so good new:
i got invited to JA
bad news:
i have NO clue who i want to go with

i might pull a kt and uninvite myself

Tue, 12 Dec 2006 05:31:50 GMT

I think i need glasses cuz it really hurts now when i try to look at the music while playing the piano...
ick
i'm bummed!
and i recommend Lost to everyone its amazing!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Sun, 10 Dec 2006 20:40:06 GMT

4 hours of the ACT
9 hours of cheer
3 hours of Lost
1/2 hour of painting
1/2 hour of snl
and who knows how many hours of sleeping and dreaming about my dad taking me dinosaur hunting!
I'm SORE!
and now i'm going to church

Wed, 06 Dec 2006 01:00:12 GMT

I fail at life.

how do i get a ticket... again! number three. well i guess i was asking for it i really do never stop at stop signs.

i'm going to go cry in a corner now. i've definitly had my fill of crying in front of a cop today... and now i'm going to cry somemore!

how the hell do people get out of ticket, cuz i sure cant do it!

Sun, 03 Dec 2006 19:01:37 GMT

i still have this cold... but i'm going to kick it out cuz its not welcome anymore! and i dont like talking to people and sounding like, "hi (sniff) how (sniff sniff) are (sniff) you? (sniff sniff sniff sniff sniff)" (and no those arn't the sniff's of doing cocaine they are the sniff's of my cold.) i just sound like i'm crying when i'm on the phone or like i'm just absolutely discusting in person because i'll be hacking up everything in my lungs because i cant breathe. Yup i'm definitly kicking this thing out. but first i'm naming it marcus.
on the up side seans birthday was fun and last night was fun!

melting bananas on a gas range

Wed, 29 Nov 2006 21:21:58 GMT

word

Mon, 27 Nov 2006 23:01:45 GMT

today was SOOO freeing!
i started calendaring again (something i've been missing like i miss pb&j sandwiches!)
and i got a job at coach, but i dont think i'll keep it for long. It'll probably end up just being a holiday job for money.

OH OH OH and ITS SNOWING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i'm so happy! sweaters are the best and so are scarves YUMMY!!!!!!!!
anyways since i didn't calendar in a livejournal entry i better get off the internet and go do my hw!
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Fri, 17 Nov 2006 07:12:53 GMT

I think i've said this before but i think way too much... about everything..
about the angles on the counter and how it might hit the edge of my hip... and then i cringe... how wierd noises i hear have to be heard again or i might explode....i think about numbers, and then i just have to burn them.
so thats what i did today.

Sat, 11 Nov 2006 09:07:24 GMT

I love someone very much... i think sometimes i dont realize how much. But i do. I think my capacity to love is greater than i know... and it scares me... and also the fact that i use so many dot dot dots scares me as well, because i'm worried about using my naughty habit in some important essay someday. Or maybe i'll have to write the president and he'll be like, "who is this dumb broad who doesn't know how to use correct punctuation". besides the point, i'm happy, and i want him to know that... even though i complain about college or church... or the fact that i feel gross cuz i havn't showered in a week... he makes me feel so good about myself. I dont think i give him enough credit for what he does. He's a Prince, and i love him.

Wed, 08 Nov 2006 05:16:20 GMT

things i want to say and wish i had at the moment:
you suck dog balls
your dog sucks dog balls
if i had a dog he wouldn't suck your dogs balls because your dogs balls suck!
BALLS!

other than that... i feel no accomplishment today... my mom got mad (crazy mad) at me for lying to her about where i was... i got to draw today... i had no canvas so i used old shopping bags... it turned out cool

and i think i'm going to go back to being a nun... yup...and this time i'm gonna make it!... maybe at least for a month... really this time... i'm going to! i know i am!

Mon, 06 Nov 2006 06:08:32 GMT

This weekend was fun!
i love my parents SOOO much... they may be old... but they are the youngest old people that i know... and my dad is the silliest old man that i know, and i'm so happy he helps me study for spanish tests, and my mom helps me memorize poems! I had so much fun hanging out with them this weekend.... i'm glad they like kidnapping me.... hehe

And i'm way excited for prom cuz kristi and i have decided that we are all going to stay up and watch the sun rise because they did that in marie antiounette (i cant spell cuz the lights arnt on at my house so i'm not gonna try)

Thu, 02 Nov 2006 01:59:26 GMT

i've had the worst headache the last 2 weeks and it got worst today... i dont know why... not for any particular reason... it just did.... probably just halloween did it to me.
steve gave me advil though, or sumthin like it, and fixed me right up.

then when i got home my mom gave me more drugs and now i'm dizzy... damn these headaches!!!!!!!
damn hormones
damn hickeys
damn tigers
damn yankees
damn homework
... and everything else that should be damned!
but i only mean it in the best and sweetest way you can "damn" something.

and i've decided to become a nun!
a mormon nun.
sí se puedo!

Thu, 26 Oct 2006 04:53:30 GMT

i've always believed in free choice because i never thought that you should limit ones ability to decide whether they should get an abortion or not... i always thought that it was wrong to have an abortion, and i would never have one, but i dont believe in taking away other peoples rights... until today... someone i've known (not my sister) for a long time told me they were pregnant. I didn't tell them what to do nor did i say anything at all.... i was in shock... the first thing she told me was that her parents told me they wanted her to get an abortion, but she said she wouldn't because she didn't want to go back on a decision that she had made when she had first started having sex. All day i've been contimplating life, and how important it is... i dont know if its a maternal instinct but the fact that something is growing inside of her, but at a time when it shouldn't be is just so sad, but not worth killing because no matter if it has a spirit or not right now she's creating life... i know i'm such a girl... but really... she's pregnant!

btw my sisters pregnant too
she said she's gonna name her child after a story book character... i told her my name is already (boo... radley)

Mon, 23 Oct 2006 05:14:39 GMT

i was SOOOOO tired this weekend
and then my straightener died!!!!! ( but i survived)
i'm going to start being productive as of TOMORROW!
but for now i'm going to just be lazyyyyyyyyyyyyyy!

Fri, 13 Oct 2006 04:31:16 GMT

i wish i was still 5... things would be a simpiler...
i wouldn't know the things i know now... i wouldn't have to do the things i do now.
I'd feel like i was floating on a cloud.
then again i feel like a 5 year old in an 18 year old body... these boobs, this waist, my height ( which actually isn't that tall) seems so unreal to me.
i cant stand it!
i want to still sleep in my parents closet
i'm not ready for college
i'm not ready to vote
i'm not ready!
but when i started to drive i know i didn't think i was ready to do that either.
so, maybe by the end of year i will have grown 13 years older in maturity and i'll be ready to face the world.... so look out world... my name is Amber Elizabeth Gardner ... who do you think you are?

btw i think i think i have a new addiction to greys anatomy

Thu, 05 Oct 2006 04:08:09 GMT

so yeah
i just cut my hair
and um
i dont think i like it
i feel like i little boy... which sucks
because it wont grow
and now i'm going to cry.
i did like it
till i looked in the mirror when i got home
and when i went to cheer practice and realized that everyone had long beautiful hair... so i'm going to cry now

Tue, 26 Sep 2006 03:06:09 GMT

I started this entry out and it was really depressing so i had to think about all the things i was happy about:
I CLEANED MY ROOM
my life is AMAZING
i have a nice car
a have a new camera
i like pilates
my mother made a really good dinner tonight...
i'm excited to go visit BYU this week...
i'm really excited to go see my brother...
and i'm way excited to go see band of horses...
and i love steve
(hehe)
<33333333333333

Thu, 21 Sep 2006 04:08:44 GMT

THIS IS A MYSPACE MESSEGE from joe:

ME:tiger lilly ate my dinner
and she isn't sharing
but i got my CAMERA!
mwhahahahah
canon REBEL XT!!!!!!!!!!
yaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
and now must go read

JOE: DAH!!!!!!!!!! that's the exact camera I want! dah!!!!!!!!

Its things like this that make me want to go barf in a trash can because some people are so lame!!!!!!
i hope that god will smite them (joe) and then tell them to get a life of their own!

Tue, 19 Sep 2006 15:38:45 GMT

ya so spanish right now is
boring
and i'm tired
and there is 20 minutes of class left
and i'm dying
and i cant handle
any more capitals
and countries
because
they suck
blah
blah blah
blah
blah
balh

Sun, 17 Sep 2006 20:12:37 GMT

i'm a strong believer in not hating anyone, because hate really only brings you down, but mannnn oooooooo UGHHHHH!!!!!!!!!
i HATE JOE sooo much
he's not allowed to like regina spektor!
no he's not!

on a happier note she's playing in san fran on october 29 and kt and i are going to drive down there and see her!
so HA!
ther ya go!

ok so i think i'm over the whole hate thing now... and anyone is allowed to like regina spektor, but just not him because he sucks!

Thu, 14 Sep 2006 04:37:31 GMT

yoga was amazing!

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